Take it outside

Have you seen the actual reality of a monsters cry?
Or only an illusion?
The product of a tortured brain...
Sucking the hallucinitory acid into the system...

Wow...university starts wednesday. Schooltime depression has started already. I put away most of my cd's and replaced them with more upbeat ones in an effort to try and improve my mood. I'm still in that bad place, only now I dont have violent/sad lyrics running through my head all the time. At least it's an improvement, and any improvement is welcome.

My goals for this year are to spend more time concentrating on schoolwork, less time on the computer and in front of the tv, and possibly be a little more outgoing, make some friends, and if a girlfriend. Everything else is trivial right now compared to school though. (we'll see how long this lasts...im betting it will wear off within a month...it always does**)

no longer quite so broken...more bored. among other things...its wayy past when i should have gone to bed in order to be nice tomorrow...but I still have about 50 pages left in The Ships of Earth (by Orson Scott Card...READ IT!) and i am not going to sleep knowing that i am not done it. I wont be able to sleep knowing that there is more to read. Sadly i dont have book 4 in the series and thus cannot continue reading after I am done it.

In other news, for those of you that care, i havent gotten a chance to draw yet. But I have some inspirations. So i will. Tomorrow I promise.

I want to get a digital camera so i can go everywhere and take pictures every time i see something picture worthy. Today I saw a tiny little child walking around haphazardly with a Tiki-Ming drink straw in his mouth. It was beautiful. Is there a way to make a digital camera take black-and-white photos or do you have to edit them after uploading to computer?

In other, other news, I have reached 200 pageviews! uhm...maybe once i learn art I will get more and have something to Really celebrate. but for now i am content with my 200.

In other news..i can read journals just fine, but the deviations in my inbox are all listed as being nothing, made by nobody, submitted dec 31, 1969. that is all of them.

i am broken. mind and body.

im getting pretty bored... if i didnt know better i would say im getting depressed again... wait.. i dont know better. Uh.. work sucks, and i have nothing to do in my spare time but read. Fortunately reading is fun, but only when i am reading, never afterwards.

But anyway...if you want a good movie to go see, Collateral is it. That or the Manchurian Candidate...or The Bourne Supremacy...

also, Paul Oakenfold = awesome trance. ive been listening to him all day.

welcome to journal entry number 1! not much going on here. other than i hate my job and want to quit. thats pretty much it about that topic. uhm the other night i saw the bourne supremacy with some friends, ,good show! going out tonight to play some ddr and also possibly see a movie if anything good is on. just thought i would try out this journal thing mostly.